A Life Update through poetry

Five years I felt the pain of sorrow

And now I feel like its repeating itself.

The strings of my heart are being tugged

Even now I am hiding it from human’s eyes.

I had shut the world out.

Being a timid and emotionless person was easy to be.

I was safe.

I kept people safe from my uncontrollable emotions

Now I still hide in that shell.

Afraid of what people would say if I told them the truth

Would they care less?

Or just laugh at me?

Pity me?

I’m just a hidden shell of insecurities and trust issues.

From losing a loved one. To losing a close friend who was almost like sister.

Now knowing a childhood friend is gone away

And will be only seen them until I be in the grave.

I am afraid. I will never open up again. Afraid I will be my old self.

Being that awkward teen who only hanged out with her older brothers’ friends.

Confused who to talk to.

I am lost soul.

You look at me online and see me as outgoing.

But in reality, its all lies.

You would think I would cried over the sorrow I experienced

But I hid it under my skin

Until the sadness became nightmares and hallucinations

I think something wrong with me.

Why do I cry when I laugh?

And not when I am sad.

Is something wrong with me?

I probably should see someone for this.

But even again, they will probably put me on meds

And I can’t have that again.

I have seizures when I was a child.

And barely survived the daily medicine I had to take.

It was not bad.

But to have a repeated past

would honestly break me.

Seeking God is my top priority 

Praying and reading the bible is my only comfort now.

I pray and dream of the day I will be outgoing for only a moment.

But that seems so far away.

Now I must wait for the plans He has for me.

Realistic Checklist – 2019

It’s going to be a shorter post but its a great post. A little off my writing/book theme, but you know. My usual routine will return. So the end of the year is near, so I decided to give you a checklist of all the things I plan on doing the year of 2019. 

  1. Donate Blood. I have been avoiding doing this for the longest time. 
  2.  Go to a concert whether it be Lauren Daigle or King and Country.
  3. Travel. I will really be traveling to local cities and have adventures there. If I am lucky, maybe places that are up to seven hours to drive from home. I am basically broke bookworm/writer and visiting Europe is the last thing I need to do to break the bank. 🙂
  4. Do something spontaneous like ziplining or skydiving.
  5. Volunteer whether it be at a local animal center, library, etc.
  6. Take a self-defense class.
  7. Expand my wardrobe. Transform to that edgy boho style. 

Only seven things, why? I will actually do them, shockingly enough. I made a resolution of this year and failed greatly. I have learned from that lesson. Thanks for reading.

Author: Gabriella Slade

Welcome back, owlnerds. This week, I interviewed Gabriella Slade.

Gabriella Slade

Bio: Gabriella Slade grew up as the eldest of seven, two of her sisters were adopted from West Africa. As a homeschooled student, Gabriella spent her free time reading novels and scribbling down stories from a young age, where she discovered her love for fantasy. As a teen, she wrote and edited her debut novel over a period of 3 years. Gabriella has been blogging since 2015. Her blog won the Liebster award in 2017. You can connect with her online at gabriellaslade.com


Synopsis: Sixteen-year-old Kade has always been different. Unknowingly, there are magic, and dangers in the world he has never known of. All he knows of is his tiny village and his ability to feel the emotions of others. After he is saved by a mysterious man from a creature known as a kaminza, Kade is thrust into a world of Soul Questers–elves who have the ability to not only feel emotions but also hear thoughts. Kade can do what they can, but he is not one of them. He must train to use his powers in secret. If he is discovered by the elven government, he could be killed. That is if his powers don’t kill him first. And that isn’t the only problem. Kade’s adopted father, Axel, has apparently hidden more than Soul Questers from Kade, and now those secrets could also be dangerous enough to get Kade killed. If he’s going to survive, Kade himself might have to learn to keep a few secrets, and they’re not just about him…

Website: http://gabriellaslade.com/

Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Show-Me-Dragon-Artifacts-Book-ebook/dp/B07CT6TD87/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1539748693&sr=8-1&keywords=show+me+gabriella+slade


What was your first idea of a story? Or your earliest memory of it? The first story I ever wrote was set in Egypt, and it was about a girl who was chosen to be Princess after the Pharoah’s daughter dies. The girl doesn’t accept who is until a handsome prince tells her that she is a good princess. I still have that book. I drew my own illustrations and stapled it in construction paper.

Music or no music while writing? Sometimes, yes, sometimes, no. Depends on what mood I’m in. If yes, I listen to instrumental or movie soundtracks. If I listen to music with words, I might start typing the lyrics

If you weren’t writing full time, what would you be doing? I would be teaching competitive dance, which I would still like to be able to do after college.

What color aesthetic would you be your WIP?  Grey with a bit of color: maybe blue

Where do most of your ideas come from? Reading other people’s books. I like to pull inspiration from my favorite books and turn them into my own ideas. Also, Pinterest because why not?

What is your favorite/least favorite part of the writing process? Favorite: Watching all my different ideas come together, especially when editing. Least Favorite: Writer’s block and sometimes drafting. I find that it’s easier to work with something that is already there rather than a blank page.

How long did take you write Show Me? Roughly two years from idea to publication.

Which famous person, living or dead would you like to meet and why? Ok this honestly a hard one. I would love to meet JK Rowling (Queen) but also I want to meet Nadine Brandes! (Does she count as famous. (lol)

What are your writing dreams? To be a best selling author, and to create a fan base of people who love Soul Quester books and all my characters. Like the HP or Cassandra Clare fandoms.

What is your spirit animal? I don’t really have a spirit animal, but do Patronus count? Mine is a black mare.

Thanks for reading!!! What bookish posts would you like to see? 🙂

A Teacher Like You

I wrote this free verse poem for my high school English teacher. Please enjoy!

Clashes of fiery fury

Breaks not the attitude

Of thy soul.

Thy kindness is the way

To behold.

Your wittiness outnumbers

All brokenness within.

Imperfect or perfect

It truly doesn’t matter.

All I wish to say

Is thank you.

Thank you for healing

Our hardships of tomorrow.

Reopening our weak minds  

With knowledge and gratitude.

Destroying the awkwardness

Of our very silence

You bring joy

To us all.

Again I say,

Thank you.

See ya next week, owlnerds. 🙂

Current Favorite Songs

Welcome back, owlnerds. So this blog post is not book based but since I am currently clueless about what to write. Might as well, do a lifestyle post. As seen in the title, I will listing my current favorite songs. I currently listen to rock, pop, country, soul, and Christian. Enjoy the music recommendations. Comment down below what music I should listen to next. 🙂

  1. The Proof of Your Love by King and Country
  2. What Ifs by Kane Brown, Laura Alaina
  3. Havanna by Camilla Cabello
  4. Don’t Worry about Me by Frances
  5. Let it out by Frances
  6. River of Tears by Alessia Cara
  7. Incomplete by James Bay
  8. Outlaws by Alessia Cara
  9. I am Yours by Laura Daigle
  10. Little Light by Rachel Platten
  11. Once in a Lifetime by Landon Austin
  12. Night’s on Fire by David Nail
  13. Take a Back Road by Rodney Atkins
  14. Wings of An Angel by Laura Alaina
  15. Before I Knew Ya by Maddy Newton
  16. All to Myself by Dan + Shay
  17. Mercy by Brett Young
  18. Take Back Home by Chris Lane, Tori Kelly
  19. Speechless by Dan + Shay
  20. Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood
  21. The Champion by Carrie Underwood
  22. Something Bad by Carrie Underwood, Miranda Lambert
  23. See ya Again by Carrie Underwood
  24. Church Bells by Carrie Underwood
  25. Born to Love Ya by LANCO
  26. Love You Like That by Canaan Smith
  27. Break Up in the End by Cole Swindell
  28. Singles You Up by Jordan Davis
  29. My Girl by Dylan Scott
  30. Girls Like You by Maroon 5
  31. Walls by Trevor Holmes
  32. Till I Fall Sleep by Jayme Dee
  33. This City by Sam Fischer
  34. H.O.L.Y by Flordia and Georgia Line
  35. Break up with Him by Old Dominion
  36. The Fighter by Keith Urban
  37. Queens Don’t by Raelynn
  38. God Gave Me You by Blake Shelton
  39. In Case You Didn’t Know by Brett Young
  40. Parallel Line by Keith Urban
  41. Sleep Without You by Brett Young
  42. You Make It Easy by Jason Aldean
  43. It Goes Like This by Thomas Rhett
  44. Eyes on You by Chase Rice
  45. Written in the Sand by Old Dominion
  46. Nothin’ Like You by Dan + Shay
  47. Hello Beautiful by Noah Schnacky
  48. Never Forget You by Zara Larsson, MNEK
  49. Shape of You by Ed Sheeran
  50. The Middle by Zedd, Maren Morris, Grey
  51. In the Name of Love by Martin Garrix, Bebe Rexha
  52. I’m Not the Only One by Sam Smith
  53. Whole Lot in Love by Austin Burke
  54. Hollow by Tori Kelly, Big Sean
  55. Great Love Story by LANCO
  56. All on Me by Devin Dawson
  57. Heaven by Kane Brown
  58. This Hour by Future of Forestry
  59. You Gonna be Ok by Jenn Johnson
  60. Back to God by Reba McEntire, Lauren Daigle
  61. Once and For All by Lauren Daigle
  62. Hold Back the River by James Bay
  63. On Giant’s Shoulders by Future of Forestry
  64. The Earth Stood Still by Future of Forestry
  65. Light from Earth by Future of Forestry
  66. You by Future of Forestry
  67. Hold My Hand by Future of Forestry
  68. Unforgettable by Thomas Rhett
  69. Scars to Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara
  70. Seventeen by Alessia Cara
  71. Stone by Alessia Cara
  72. Now is Forever by Lauren Daigle
  73. WILD by Trojan Sivan, Alessia Cara, Young Bomb
  74. Meant to Be by Bebe Rexha, Florida and Georgia Line
  75. Sparks by James Bay
  76. Seeing Blind by Nial Horan, Maren Morris
  77. Marry Me by Thomas Rhett
  78. If You Ever Want to Be in Love by James Bay
  79. If I Ain’t Got You by James Bay
  80. Gloria by Josh Garrels
  81. Journey to Bethlehem by Josh Garrels
  82. Colors by Josh Garrels
  83. Ulysses by Josh Garrels
  84. Need the Sun to Break by James Bay
  85. Smooth by Florida and Georgia Line
  86. On Top of the World by James Bay
  87. Hear Your Heart by James Bay
  88. Eyes Wide Open by Sabrina Carpenter
  89. Thumbs by Sabrina Carpenter
  90. Drunk on Your Love by Brett Eldredge
  91. I Could Use A Love Song by Maren Morris
  92. I Don’t Dance By Lee Brice
  93. I Like the Sound of That by Rascal Flatts
  94. Kiss Somebody by Morgan Evans
  95. I’d Be Jealous Too by Dustin Lynch
  96. Like I Loved You by Brett Young
  97. Legends by Kelsea Ballerina
  98. I’m Yours by Alessia Cara
  99. Stay by Zedd, Alessia Cara
  100. Wild Things by Alessia Cara
  101. Highway Don’t Care
  102. I Like Me Better by Lauv
  103. Jumpsuit by Twenty One Pilots

Thanks for reading! 🙂





What not to write/read

Greetings, fellow writers, and bookworms. I give you things that you shouldn’t write/read. These are opinions are mine and are based on my Christian faith.


Lets me start by pushing a very common trend in books today and like forever. The need to discuss inappropriate scenes. What is the matter with people today? Nobody should read scenes with so much unbecoming behavior. Especially if teens or younger are reading it. Umm, no.  Or if the chapters of the books feel it necessary to describe every little detail. I am pointing at you, popular young adult books.

Next up is the profanity in books everywhere. Recently I have been reading Christian fiction trying my best to avoid this. But in today’s books its hard not to find a book with no language in it. Why do people find it necessary to write, read, or say it? Just saying. The world would be a lot better if we zipped our mouths.


The belief that writing an abusing relationship is good somehow. Like why is that good? Hmm. Those books give off a negative side that influences the younger audience. Showcasing that an abusive relationship is good. And sure, its fictional but books influence people.

Then there are books’ themes that are either depression or suicidal thoughts and basing it off as a positive theme. I am pointing at movie producers/writers right now. Let’s make books that have these issues so people think it’s a good thing that people should kill themselves.  Or have people start hating themselves causing self-abuse or eating disorders. Like why do you think that is good? Can we not write like that? Sure we could share those problems with the world but we could at least show a disclaimer in the summary of the books. The right way to write this: Show people the negative sides of this. The reasons why you should love yourself. The reason why you shouldn’t follow the world’s standards in life. That would be a start, people.

That wraps up today’s post up. Hope you enjoyed. Please comment down below, what people shouldn’t read/write it.




April Goals

We are now a quarter of the year done.

I have read thirty-two books out of my hundred goal.

I have done two out of fifteen of my New Year’s Resolution.

This year has gone fast. Spring is here.

For the month of April, I am planning on doing Camp NaNoWriMo. Here is my profile.

Hopefully, I will get at least 5,000 words done.

Camp NaNoWriMo is a virtual writer’s retreat, designed for maximum flexibility and creativity. There are  “camp” sessions in both April and July. For each month, writers are willing to tackle any writing projects and try to get a certain amount of words done in a month. Word count can be as small as 30 to 1,000,000 words.

My reading goal, this month is around eight books.  I would do more but this month is a crazy month.

I am also doing a sugar and gluten free diet as well.

Any plans for this month?

Thanks for reading!




Fictional boyfriends

I decided to mix the book tag “Who are your book boyfriends?” with fictional boyfriends from tv shows/movies. Enjoy.

Merlin Show

Merlin: Well obviously who doesn’t like Colin Morgan. Then again, I might be just a third wheel with Merlin and Arthur’s bromance.

Merlin inspires me because of his selflessness. He always puts others first. No matter what happens to him. He is kind and does not seek reward for his actions, although it is sometimes frustrating. People think he is an idiot, but I know that he is one of the greatest men to ever live.

Gwaine: Who can say no to this face?

Heidi is always wondering "WHY AM I NOT FRIENDS WITH EOIN MACKEN?" and after reading this post, we still don't have an answer.

Harry Potter

Snape: Snape is my favorite male character in the whole series. He dislikes Harry Potter, me too. No one would touch me since everyone is intimidated by him. A win, win.

My pages à la page: Novità in liberia: Harry Potter si back!

Jane Austen

Darcy from 1995 Pride and Prejudice

Darcy - Function - Inflected form(s) - Etymology - Pride and Prejudice #janeausten #fanart

Colin Firth - Pride and Prejudice, 1995 | The Definitive Ranking Of Actors Who Have Played Mr Darcy


Ty: I am currently finishing the tv show on Netflix then I will rewatch the series again to prepare for the new seasons coming out.  Then again who doesn’t want a boyfriend like Ty.

Graham Wardle (Ty Borden)

The Lord of the Rings

Samwise  Gamgee

Sam is literally the only reason the ring made it to mount doom!! Frodo would have died a hundred times over without him!

Sam, a truer friend never existed.


*coughs*  Tom Hiddleston

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William Buxton (Return to Cranford)

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*coughs again* Benedict Cumberbatch

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I can’t watch any nature documentaries that have him as a narrator. My face will get bright red. XD


And that’s it. Thanks for making my face blush.

Thanks for Reading!


Liebster Award

Welcome Back. Hope you are having a great day so far.

I was nominated for the Liebster Award by  Emmaline.

Thanks, Emmaline, for the nomination.

The Rules

  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Answer the 11 questions they gave you.
  3. Name 11 facts about yourself.
  4. Nominate 11 bloggers to do this tag, and let them know you nominated them.
  5. Give them 11 questions to answer.



  1. What is the main topic of your blog {or category?} Lifestyle/Books
  2. What is one thing you learned that will stick with you? That no one should be judged by their appearance.  But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7).
  3. What is one hobby of yours? Photography
  4. What is your favorite season of the year? Fall
  5. Do you have any siblings? Yes.
  6. What is one thing you never tell people about yourself that you’d like to? I am one of the few girls in my family that didn’t take ballet.
  7. What {or who} inspires you? Jesus, Carrie Underwood, Lauren Daigle
  8. Do you like chocolate? {if so, what kind?} Dark Chocolate or anything with peanut butter in it.
  9. What’s your favorite candy? Milky Way
  10. What is your dream job? World photographer and author.
  11. Tell me one random thing about the room you’re in right now.  I have Christmas lights dangling in my closet.

11 Random Facts about me:

  1. My favorite time period to read is the Salem Witch Trials or the gothic era.
  2. I enjoy listening to depressing music.
  3. I can play a little bit of piano.
  4. I love wearing black and blue.
  5. My favorite poet is Edgar Allan Poe.
  6. I love the Classics.
  7. I want to be an archaeologist until I saw all the requirements for it.
  8. I did karate and softball when I was younger.
  9. My element would be fire.
  10. I am a mixture of a tomboy/bookworm.
  11. Writing calms me down.


I Nominate:

@bookish beginnings



Kate Flournoy

11 Questions

  1. What came first the chicken or egg?
  2. What is your superpower?
  3. What is your favorite drink?
  4. Any allergies?
  5. Favorite TV Show?
  6. Favorite childhood book?
  7. Love or hate makeup?
  8. Junky or Healthy?
  9. Homeschool, Private, or Public Schooled?
  10. Favorite holiday? Why?
  11. Favorite book genre(s)?


Thanks for reading





The Writer’s Tag

  1. What genres, styles, and topics do you write about? I write fantasy, contemporary, romance, dystopia, science fiction, and poetry. I can write in first POV and third POV. Some of my stories reflect the world’s problems: abortion and human tracking.
  2. How long have you been writing? I honestly don’t remember. Strange enough. I know the first story, I ever wrote was a mouse and squirrel and they get married at the end.
  3. Why do you write? To glorify God and to express the real problems of the world when everyone refuses to believe that they don’t exist.
  4. When is the best time to write?
    I can write anytime but I am most active when the sun goes down.
  5. What parts of writing do you love and hate?
    Love: Dialogue, character development, world building Hate: Feedback, the wait in between drafts, deleting your favorite scenes when they don’t even flow with the story, editing
  6. How do you overcome writer’s block? Usually, I listen to music before writing. I also read what I have written. Check out my blog post on breaking any creative block.
  7. Are you working on something at the moment?  I have several stories. Lynn, a contemporary story. Synopsis:
    When one of Lynn’s friends disappears, she begins to track down her. Soon to discover a scandalous organization is behind all of it. Slowly killing each leader of the pack, she discovers her life is more threated. Will she protect her friends or will she be the next victim?
    Also, I am writing a contemporary short story called A Memory.
    Synopsis:  After becoming a world photographer, Roxy feels alone inside. From poverty to fame, Roxy still feels like she hasn’t found her true potential. When she hears news from home, she feels like her world could split in two. Is this news trying to tell her something? Or will she still be lost in a world of her own?
  8. What are your writing goals this year? Publish a fictional book, I have been working on since forever. Publish a collection of poems on Kindle. Finish another story of mine and sent to my beta readers.
     I tag anyone who loves to write

    Thanks for Reading!