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Why my current WIP is not Christian Fiction?


I am a Christian and I don’t label my current WIP as Christian . Here is why..

My story, currently titled Fallen World is not Christian Fiction but does mention God, adoption, and salvation but I do plan on publishing this book traditional and I know for sure the publishers will not label my story as Christian.

There is nothing bad in the story. There really isn’t any romance. I don’t swear/cuss in the story. Its really the graphic side of it and the deep themes I go into.

There are several scene where I go into detail about things most people don’t want to talk about. I mention the inside of an abortion clinic, small summary of what the abortion process is, a go into detail of a house that once was used for sex trafficking, the problems against it, a speech of ex. sex assault victim, and the criminals for sex assault.

I mention the LGBT community but the darker side of it all.

The plot of the story is basically if we reversed certain laws back to illegal but would happen. A rebellion against the people against the government aka America rebelling against the Truth.

There is violence along with the graphic detail. There are gun shootings and others things I haven’t plot out or brainstormed yet. Its a bit the adult fiction side of things. Unless you like violent books.

Would you consider this Christian? Because I honestly don’t. Let me know in the comments below.

Last night, I hit 100 followers on this blog and to celebrate I am going share a snippet of my story… Enjoy!!

Metal cages were shook and we slide away from each other. Slipping as we raced toward each other but failing miserably. Thud! My head pained me as I touch my forehead. Blood drips from my head and I notice everyone was caught by a net and somehow I missed the mark. 

“Attention.” Heaving stomping and a woman speaks and my head spins as blood splashed everywhere. 

That woman is not from around here. Her pale skin. Brunette hair. What is she wearing? A suit. I thought men wear them. 

“It has come to my attention, aliens.”

I pointed a finger at her and walked over to her as my friends stared at me. “Aliens, the aliens? You might think you so high and mighty but no you are a stranger here. You invade our land for some reason, I have no idea. You cage us for fun. Are you planning on trafficking us next? Please hun, I am bleeding to death.”

Click. Click. She walked toward me with those devilous pointed heels. “Excuse me, and who are you?”

I reached my hand toward her but pulled away back in place as she stared me down. “Well, not friendly then. Estella and who might you be?”

“Officer Dipper.”

I laughed and knew it was a fatal mistake. Bang! I looked behind me as one of my friends fell. Something fell across the room and hit her in the gills. Water spilled out as she fell forward and then the rush of green blood came next. Panicking as no one moved. My eyes looked up as Kaius’ mouth was open and he stood in shock. I scrambled over and pressed my fingers into her wound. My reflexes jointed as I could feel a vomit coming but pushed it down. Naida was more important. A cold took over me as I watch her blood and water freeze. I looked up as Officer Dipper raised eyebrow. “Kaius help me, you idiot.”

His head shook as I rolled my eyes. Pushing through the crowd, I watched him take Naida from me. “Estella, what are you planning? There is no way out.”

“Oh, darling. You know nothing.”

Dipper crossed her arms. “And what do you plan on doing, alien?”

“My name is Estella, stupid.” My eyes widened as the bleed that once dripping from my forehead disappeared and the thing replaced it was a frozen icicles. Shattered as red icicles fell from my head. “That’s new.”

Officer Dipper snapped her fingers as people of some sort came in. They wore rubber spandex suits. Astronauts, a thing of myths. “Kill her.”

Thanks so much for reading!!!

Life is Precious



They told you that God is love. But you don’t see that. You were abandoned in an event of your life. A loved one died. You were abused. You were raped. An unexpected pregnancy. All the emotions hit you hard like a hurricane and then you blame Him. You think maybe if I curse Him, I will feel better. Or if I just give myself to the world by blood and death everything will be over.

Now you lay on a marble bathtub in the middle of nowhere in a motel room. Staring at the ceiling and question if killing yourself will satisfy your needs. But lets just pause there before you do anything rash.

What is the reason for this action? Is it to satisfy your needs like I state above? Or do you think people applaud you after you kill yourself? And I wouldn’t be lying if people actually say or do that?

Lets pock at a TV show that reflects this. 13 Reason Why. A teen girl kills herself because she was raped and blackmailed. People enjoy this show. Of course, things after this show aired that you wouldn’t suprised that people petitioned it to be canceled. The reason is that killing oneself is like a joke. Its entertainment. Young girls were triggered from this show and killed themselves. Only for the parents to learn later after they died what the cause of it all. This is sickening.

Lets stop take another example of selfish love. Me before You by Jojo Moyers. This story is disgusting. An disturbing ending for a popular romance book. I am confused why is this a great story? I love you so much that I support yourself killing yourself in an illegal matter. If you can’t live life as a paralyzed, then should murder yourself. And no, I am not ratting the author. I am just stating my opinion.

See that I changed killed to murder yourself because you are murder a body even if its your own. God states, “The soul that sinneth, it shall die.” (Ezekiel 18:2)

Murder is the seven deadly sins. Murder is a criminal, unholy, unrighteous act. Murder is like following the footsteps of the Devil. A fallen angel who only wants to kill all men.

This will be finally example before I make my conclusion. I told myself I wouldn’t mention politics but really. It only started in the politics ever since the bill came up several years ago. And if you guessed it how does it reflect selfish love? Women’s rights even when women’s bodies don’t belong to us. Everything comes from God so why this now? People want to be feminist and think their feelings are more important than the Creator that made them. And for killing an unborn baby is ok? Maybe you are some who are against my views on the matter.

So what if you had to watch your child as baby be ripped from womb and killed right in front of you? Or watch as your child thrown in a pit of beasts and they rip she/he apart. That is ok? The only difference in the modern world is that we are put to sleep for the process so how really knows what the doctors at abortion centers are actually doing.

Life is Precious. Don’t risk your own. If you are now question me, how can I be saved from all of this? I almost thought of killing myself and have killed an unborn child. Don’t lose hope. God is love. He will cleanse and forgive. And if you don’t believe me.

Christ healed and forgave a leprosy, adultery, a thief, murderer, lesbian, liar, sinner, prideful man, a greedy man, an envious man, etc. Christ heals all men with any background. He doesn’t care what gender or race you are. He loves you.

" When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken"- Psalm 34:17-20


Now you want help. Or you don't know what is next. I am no expert. So you can seek a local pastor, christian counselor or you could read the Bible.

If you are still reading and seeking help for suicidal thoughts go no other place than here.

Thanks for reading!



Journal Entry: Letting Go

Welcome back to a new post, owlnerds. Today I share a journal entry. I am currently in the progress of moving my second blog stuff to here. I thought best to work on one blog instead of juggling two. So there will be blog posts from my other blog. You have been warned.

(From Feb. 11, 2019)



So this blog post is long overdue. I probably avoiding this post for the longest even before I launched this blog itself. I told myself I would never write this but I think if you write something down it is easier to let go of the situation.

Letting go of a situation you can’t control at all is a struggle. I have been struggling it, especially with this situation. I wouldn’t go into details but if you know me you probably what the story is about. Or now know the real reason behind some of my recent actions I been doing. So I know this person for the longest time and we promised to go to the same places (college, living together, and such) but this idea we had was not the same of what God wanted. And for one, I didn’t want this to happen. And for years, I saw signs but ignored it. Since I have a tendency to give people ton of second chances.

The first signs of this were I had this person and another person really close to me but they clash. And that person knew fell apart and I couldn’t believe it happen.

The other person we got closer but slowly we fell apart. We were not close friends anymore and the worst thing is that I am too afraid to talk to the person and ask what we are anymore. Since I am afraid of being shattered again. The other worst thing about is that I see this person at least one week and I always seem to pass this person. It really is a struggle and fear I have still never get over it. So prayer would is much needed.

And being who I am, wrote poems to express my mixed feeling toward them and no one actually knows the real reason behind those poems. I really just lost myself in this. I now avoid getting close to people or making new friends because I am afraid the past will repeat itself. If you are a friend reading this, I am sorry I have been distant and it isn’t because of my introverted nature, it’s because of this.

Now I write the harder part of this post. Another thing, I struggle to let go. So around five years ago and everything was going well. A new year was happening and everything was fine until one day my family received news that would change my life forever. The news was that my grandfather I died from unknown reasons. I had already been struggling since I saw him in the hospital with blood clots in his legs around a year before. But to lose him, I think I froze. And once you hear some sad like this, you would cry and get emotional but I just didn’t. I refused to believe it. My best friend was gone. The closest family member, I had was gone. The worst thing is that I don’t know if he is heaven since he never gave testimony in his belief in God so I was basically devasted.

When people say you will see them in heaven and I know it is in God’s power whether or not he is heaven or not. But this is another thing shattered me. I shut all emotion out and started to see hallucinations of him whenever we drove to places. We would be driving I would see someone that looked like him on the side of the road but no one was actually there. I was just imagining it. The hardest thing, when you are at the store and you see someone that looks at him but know isn’t since he is not here anymore.

Its been a struggle the past several years and I still am affected by it. This is the reason why it is so hard for me to let go. And of course, they are just memories. I am trusting God in all of this. Yeah, the real reason behind my distance toward people. Thanks for reading.